this is my boy.
his name is adam, and i love him.
he's completely retarded.
today , he's shown me alot.
he's given me strength.
how?
i talked to my mom, and i just broke down.
he got mad-
he does every time.
and finally, i asked why.
"Because everytime you talk to her you get your heart broken!"
and it made me see,
he was so protective of me.
he holds my hand when im scared,
he holds me close when im sad,
he saves me from my night mares,
he's my best friend.
yes, i bitch about him.
but every relationship has bumps.
if you don't your not communicating.
or your like Amish.
for a long time i've felt that for someone to love me,
i have to look my best.
i have to do 'sexual' things to be what they want.
i think he's catching on,
because lately..
we cuddle and talk.
theres nothing more,
and i like it.
i like going to sleep and just..
knowing he loves me no matter what.
i knew it before.
but oddly i feel its amplified.
i think i just went up another rung in the 'relationship latter'
with him.
you know what?
i'm going to marry this boy.
he's so amazing.
i know i sound like some little school girl with some crush,
but we've been through so much.
death, life, hard times, good times, family, fights, love, hate....
and in the end i know we can make it.
