he couldn;t even hand the phone to me.
considered him a brother.
what am i to him?
nothing, apparently.
this is another reason to stop, another reason to get clean.
look at him, he's pathetic. he's tearing all those around him down so he can raise himself on the rubble that is his former friends, lover, family... he raises up momentarily until they landslide away from him. all because he's trying to get clean again.
ok, recap.
He broke up with me, i get with my lovely, and i go to my hound's moms house. i spend time with her, and she knows im upset. i spill to her about him. tell her who he is front and back, the good, the bad, the habits. like a year later, he gets with hound- who had a promise with her mom- no sex. he knows, and very excitedly says over and over, i can deal with that. hound makes me promise to help her keep that promise. i love the bitch, so i agree. [bitch-<3]
now, kamron lives with me and is like a brother, until like an hour ago when i find out apparently he can't trust me and he can't talk to me, he can't even look me in the eye. he thinks i betrayed him, when i was just a sad little girl talking about those whom hurt me. and now im a strong women whom is being strong for her best friend- who would bend over backwards to make him happy, but im standing behind her with a giant sign that says 'SPINE'.
yes, i'm being the cock block. why? she promised, and i'm enforcing because I promised. gave my word. now i look at kamron, and he's told her he'll get clean, and he's taking it out on everyone- and its getting old. real, real old. and by taking it out on people i mean me, and chelsea. because when she's not around he snaps at me, and when she's around i get t watch.
lucky, huh? why do i have to suffer for THEIR relationship? he doesn't get it. he wants sex so badly he's blind- so blind. if he purely loved her ...
its just sex. its JUST sex.
yes, i like sex. but if adam decided he didn't want it anymore, i would accept that, for i love him. im in love with him, and sex is but a physical thing. it is NOTHING. and i could stop, if i had to. if i knew it was hurting my loved one- any day. any day. i'm so angry that i'm happy.
i promised matt that i wouldn't do anything. no matter how much i want to scream at him.
scream, scream SCREAM.
he's like a brother to me. but he does this, and sadly...i don't find it hard to just shrug it off. like... another kamron thing. its to be expected. thats sad. it may be the lack of weed...alcohol...whatever. but if that does this to you.. then thats just sad, and i'm glad to be clean. i don't need this in my life- and i don't want to do that to my friends. no to anyone. T, this time i mean it. i do. i don't want to be a kamron.
"if i ever leave this world alive"
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Ugh that's some bull. So he is now bad that back when you guys were going out and you told her everything that now what she's using that against him or something? You're getting in trouble because both of them can't keep their own promise and because they knew that they wouldnt they asked you to do it. So they could just snap at you and get what they wanted? That's totally and utter fucking bull. Hell, let them go have sex, I hope she gets pregnant and kicked out her house. Then see how much help Kamron is going to be when he lives with you guys! See how much they will wish they kept to their own damn promises. Why do you have to pay for their own lust? That's fucking ridiculous. UGH. Some BULL. What is the point of getting clean? To not hurt yourself and those around you anymore. So what's the point of getting clean just to yell at everyone about it because you're irritated? well duh you know you're going to be irritated then just don't talk to anyone! Where did this hate randomly come from that he would post a blog like that because he said he'd be fine with having no sex and now isnt. Bull.. pure bull. I hate Chelsea and the problems she brings. First she doesnt know how to be a friend, then she gets all buddy buddy with your ex, I mean come on.. after all that who would want to be with Kamron.. just.. too much. People need to learn to make promises to keep them. Otherwise their word means dirt. pure dirt. People piss me off.
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